Sometimes… A Grieving Mother Fools Herself Until She’s Tired Of It


Sometimes… A Grieving Mother Fools Herself Until She’s Tired Of It

 

By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

 

 

 

My published book, ‘I Cry For Tommy’.  Written while in the throes of grief of losing my son…

 

 

For the past week… I have noticed that I have been trying to avoid thinking about the death of my son. I have been trying to… not grieve. Trying to not… be depressed.

 

Trying, by not thinking… putting my mind elsewhere when his name comes up in my mind. Looking at, doing other things until I am just tired of… trying to not think about Tommy not being here.

 

Grieving… I know this is all a part of grieving for someone I dearly loved with my very heart. My only child, Tommy. I’ve tried to think that I’m … not … grieving.

 

I’ve been pretending I’m alright… until tonight. I’m tired of it… I don’t feel little panic attacks inside for nothing. My heart doesn’t feel like that …for nothing.

 

I’m not crying… so far, this is the first time since Tommy died… I haven’t been crying when it’s the anniversary date he left this world. He died… May 29, 2010 on a late Saturday evening.

 

This past week … I haven’t felt well at all… though, I’ve tried to. I’ve laughed, talked about everything… but, not about Tommy.

 

Don’t feel sorry for me… this is life. Sometimes, life hurts. Sometimes… a grieving mother fools herself until she’s… tired of it.

 

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