Let Your Character Work For You … I’m In Control
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee … photo is of me, owned by me. 2014
I’m not going to do it … no matter you try to make me. Oh … if ‘I want to say that’ … I will. I can do anything … I want to do.
I poured myself another mixed drink. The liquid felt good going down my dry throat. Pretty soon … I copped a buzz. I felt relaxed … sleepy. I thought about taking a nap …
No, hell … you don’t! I want to take a nap right this minute! I can … do anything … say anything. That’s right … I said ‘hell’. If I want to … I can say more than just ‘hell’. This is … all about ‘me’, you know.
I’m not going out the damn door at this time of night! I’m relaxed, sleepy … I’ve copped a mellow, wonderful … fuzzy buzz! I choose … not to get up from this comfortable chair … I choose not to walk across the wooden floor to the door … open it, go out into the pitch black night.
I’m afraid of the dark, anyway. Don’t be sending me into places, situations that scare me. I’m not anyone’s hero … not even my own hero. I avoid situations that put me into danger.
Put me down, don’t make me get up from this wonderful chair I’m sitting in. Don’t be making me do things … when at the moment … I don’t want to do anything! Leave me the hell alone!
I got to my feet, feeling a little unsteady. I didn’t want to get up … my feet began to walk, one foot in front of the other. Son of a …bitch! I said I didn’t want to get up!
I walked to the door, reached out for the door knob. I don’t want to turn that door knob! I heard a noise … someone could be waiting just outside the door … to knock me in the head! I tried to take my hand off the knob … you wouldn’t let me.
The knob began to turn … no! I know someone is outside that door … I just heard them! I fought to lock the door back to no avail. The door opens, I feel the cold air on my face. A cold chill traveled down my spine … I want back inside!
My feet began to carry me forward … like I’m some brave hero. Such confidence I didn’t feel inside … I never heard it coming.
I awoke … looked around. Where in the f___ am I?! A hospital? I see a curtain pulled around the bed I lay in. I began to remember …
I didn’t want to go outside … I didn’t want to talk ugly … I’m not a hero. I was just fine, before this happened. By the way, what did … you … cause to happen to me, this time?!
The doctor walked in … he called me by a name I didn’t recognize. Hi Jasper … looks like you are going to be with us for a while. You have two broken arms … two broken legs … a concussion … we don’t even know if you’ll ever walk again.
I felt sick … you really fixed my ass this time. I told you I am the one who is important here. I’m the one that makes your story. I can’t understand why you just disabled me so, I can’t do anything for weeks.
I don’t like being quiet … I hate to be in bed! I want to walk, run … do things. I sat up, somehow … making my arms help to raise me. I swing my legs over the side of the bed … I’m going to walk out of here! My legs, my arms are working!
I put my clothes on, quickly. I’m getting the hell out of Dodge … don’t do that! Don’t do that!
I awoke once again … in that damn bed. The doctor walks in … he calls me by a name I don’t recognize. Hi Jasper … looks like you are going to be with us for a while. You have two broken arms … two broken legs … a concussion … we don’t know if you’ll ever walk again.
I’m not going through this again! I slung that damn sheet off my body … my arms working good once again. I jumped to my feet …danced from one foot to the other. I told you now, I’m not doing this! I am going to do it my way … you can’t write this story if you keep going against this character’s will.
Write me the way I am … let me be free … don’t force me! I’ll be the character you want me to be. There are times … I’m going to say what’s on my mind … do what I want to do. One of those things I’m not going to do something, is now … be put in a damn bed for weeks to come. I’m not in the mood.
You use your pen, your imagination … let me go to work for you. Relax … have a mixed drink … let’s do this thing. Let your character work for you … I’m in control.
Story is written by me … Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee