I Have to Look Back … to Go Forward
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny
I look back in the past for things to write about. As I take memories out one by one … I look at them as long as I can bear to. I let it go again when I know it’s time to.
You can know I don’t dwell on any one memory while doing that. I don’t let any memory hurt me … only for the time I write so, you can feel, see how real it was. I let you feel some of that pain … if you feel anything in your Heart … tears in your eyes … you are only experiencing a fraction of what I suffered.
What makes me so special to be the one … to write about my past, pain, grief? Well … I write. I am the only one who knows best the things I write. I know there are people like me … people who have suffered.
An author writes what he knows best … when one reads they know when author is writing … real. The reader knows when the author knows … what he/she are talking about. All comes through as the words seep into one’s mind.
It helps to be an expert on something … to be an expert one has to know exactly what they are talking about. The only thing I am an expert about … is … me. I can tell you a million things about me … this is what I know best. I can write my life.
I look back in my young life, see all the other children who were there with me … I can see their little faces in my mind. I know their suffering, fears … but, I can’t write what they felt, saw … smelled, tasted. Only that child who is an adult now … can do that … only they can write in their words what they experienced.
I can write about where, what, how another child played a part in my life. I can tell you what I saw … how it affected me. When I write these things … I go to a place in my mind … I write the story not to hurt others … but, to tell how things affected me. As an author I tell my story … to tell my life I have to look back to … go forward.
Note by this author:
Thank you, Prenin … for inspiring this. You made me think about ‘why’ … I bring up the past … now you know, I know! 🙂 What in the world would I write about if I didn’t have … me. I’m not an expert on anything else. As long as I live … I have something to write about. Every day is never the same … I’ll never be able to write all my life stories … the colors of my life are endless. I haven’t even begun to write yet.
Photos of me/story written … owned by Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny