I Burned A Major Bridge Behind Me … There’s No Turning Back


I Burned a Major Bridge Behind Me … There’s No Turning Back

By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

 

 

Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny gee … size 8-9 … it sure felt good to be little … I never forgot 🙂

 

 

 

Well … I did something I never thought I would do.  I can’t believe I’m not upset yet … about it.  So, that means I won’t be getting upset.  I have burned a bridge behind me, one that I can’t go back on.

I got rid of almost all my clothes this weekend.  So many still had price tags on them, so many never worn … some worn only a few times.  Why?

Because my weight has been like a yo-yo … up and down constantly.  I gain it, I lose it … I gain it.  I am an expert on … gaining weight.  I used to lose it easily … the older one gets, it seems to get harder to lose.

I am keeping my mind on my photos when I was little … it felt so wonderful.  I look forward!  🙂

 

 

I’ve lost 20 lbs … I am fighting to keep them off.  I want to go on to lose this excess weight.  It really feels good to feel thinner … I want to go back to a size 9-10, and I will succeed.  My mind is set on it. I mean to lose it … so, it will happen.

I’ve never-ever had so few clothes, shoes!  My closet is completely empty, excepting the shelves have some pretty shoes lined up.  My handbags, scarves, and such are hanging pretty.  I have a few dressy clothes hanging up.  They will have to do until I’ve dropped a significant amount of weight … only then, will I allow myself to get anything new.

I did begin to panic one time, but stopped.  I bet you wondered what I did with all those nice clothes. You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.  I’ll tell you, anyway.

I took them to a flea market … anyone that wanted to buy them I told them I was selling each blouse, pants for $2.00 each.  No one could believe it …. a lot of my clothes were name-brand.  Many had tags hanging on them where I’d gained weight … never got to wear them!

I am looking forward to being this little again … my photos of being small inspire me!  🙂

 

 

 

I still had a ‘ton’ of clothes when it came time to leave, plus a beautiful winter coat that Skip got for me just before Tommy died.  I never wore it much, he gave $150.00 for it.

 

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Beautiful Coat Skip got for me … I gave it to the woman yesterday!  🙂

 

 

Well, earlier a woman came and bought a lot of things from me.  I saw her, called her over.  Do you know what I did?  Yes, you are right?  That’s like me to do that!

I gave her all those beautiful clothes, and not only that!  I gave her a very tall box of … beautiful shoes, in all styles, and colors.

Was she happy?  Yes!  Was I happy?  When I saw her expression … yes!  I know I would love to be given such nice things!  Wouldn’t that be fun, amazing all at the same time?  I was excited for her!  🙂 Oh … I gave her that beautiful coat, too!  I was so happy because I had made her happy.  I know it sounds strange … I am like that.

I can’t wait to lose this weight!  I look very forward to taking photos with ‘too big’ clothes!  🙂

 

 

When I can afford to, and have lost a significant amount of weight … I will replace my clothes.  Am I panicking?  I’m amazed … no, I’m not.

Now … this is why I did it.  I have decided that I’m not living the rest of my life overweight.  I love being small too much to ruin the rest of my life with excess weight.  I … lost myself … when my only child, my son Tommy, died.  I am finding … me … again.  I don’t even want to be ‘pleasingly plump’.

I mean not to be ‘fat’ anymore.  I can’t turn back now … I have no more ‘fat clothes’ to run to … and I can’t afford to buy big clothes again!  🙂

I’ve burned a major bridge behind me … there’s no turning back.

 

I’m on a new road in my life … one that I knew years ago … I can’t wait to be little again.  🙂

 

 

 

Note by this Author:

This is very true, and just happened.  I’m not panicking over not having many clothes!  I’ve never had so few … not only that … I would have to gain weight to wear them!  I’ve come too far to do that.

I’m going to be small again … I’m excited.  Even if I didn’t have many clothes ever again, I’d be happy to be slender.  🙂

Photos of me are owned by me … story written, owned by me … Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

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7 thoughts on “I Burned A Major Bridge Behind Me … There’s No Turning Back

  1. Hi Gloria! 🙂

    Yes, I know what you mean! 🙂

    I’m trying to lose weight despite the medication, but my weight is hovering around 16Stone and doesn’t want to go! 😦

    I’m watching how much I eat and when, but the constant hunger induced by the medication means I have to watch the clock and eat a small meal every four hours, which only keep me sated for two hours – if that!!! 😦

    Even so I AM losing weight slowly and when I went to video the wedding of Sarah and Martin it was in the suit pants I bought a decade ago! 🙂

    Even then I needed the belt to keep them up! 🙂

    I have a ton of new clothes waiting for me to lose more body mass and I’m determined to do it! 🙂

    I have cut so many things out of my diet from cheese to pizza I should have the pounds falling away, but Olanzapine seems willing to put up one hell of a fight! 😦

    Love and huge squishy hugs my friend!!! 🙂

    Prenin.

    • Prenin, I’m glad you are seeing so much of what you are wanting … weight loss. You are right … it’s the hardest thing for anyone to do because … if it was so easy … don’t you agree that everyone would be walking around thin? 🙂 Love, Gloria 🙂

      • Having seen so many pictures of starving children in Africa, I often feel so ashamed to be overweight!!! 😦

        I’m not so bothered about being thin as carrying less fat! 🙂

        I have a beer belly which is slowly disappearing, but my actual weight doesn’t seem to be dropping, or if it is my scales don’t show it! 😦

        I hate my medication and the lies of the doctors I have been in contact with, but now I’m addicted I can’t simply stop taking them – believe me I tried!!! 😦

        Oh well: I’ll keep trying! 🙂

        Love and hugs my sweet friend!

        Prenin.

      • Prenin, I understand. Never give up … and everything will somehow be all right … somehow … it always is, even it it isn’t perfect. 🙂 Love, Gloria

  2. I am overweight and of course want to shift some but strangely I am actually more comfortable in my own skin than I have ever been before,three slipped discs in my back a few weeks after giving birth to my son have meant 7 years of restricted movement, 2 spinal surgeries and enough meds to fill a pharmacy but I realised it does not matter what I think my body looks like or what anyone else thinks of it, the only thing that matters is slowly getting back to a point where it works as it should once more. I will never be as thin as I once was but that does not matter my aim is not a size but to be able to walk without pain or needing to stop every couple 50 metres, it will be a long journey but I am on it already one step at a time

    • I can truly understand all you wrote. You have been through so much, and I know you suffer much pain. Like you, getting to a place where your body works where you can function to do the things you want, need to … is most important. I hope you can get to the point where you are most happiest, and have the least pain. I do understand as my body has been through so much. I was thinking about you having not one, but 2 spinal surgeries … oh my! I’m so glad you are more comfortable than ever before, now. I enjoyed hearing from you! 🙂

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