I Carry My Own Baggage …
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
Photo owned by me … taken in my closet … Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
I have been sick for over a week now … I only have mild discomfort in my lower left side now. It has been excruciating pain all week. I have diverticulitis … among other things. I’m not knocking it … the oncologist said I should have died 16 years ago. So, truthfully … how can I complain?
I can cry, moan and groan because I hurt, and take medicine and all ‘that sort of thing’ … but, I never think I can complain. I tell myself this over and over … ‘hellfire, it hurts so bad but … I’m not complaining’.
Now, I don’t tell you about crying if something hurts. I’m not super woman , you know. I don’t tell you when I suffer a lot. It doesn’t do any good to complain … and to be truthful … who gives a damn? Oh, another thing … what good does it do? Does it make the pain any less? No. Why should I mess your day up?
You see people who can’t wait to make you sorry for them. Woe is me … feel sorry for me. I’m not going to make anyone feel sorry for me. I’ve suffered in one way or other most all my life … I’d rather make someone not like me enough to keep them from being close enough to see me hurting. I will deal with my own pain. You won’t ever have to.
That’s not saying I don’t truly appreciate people caring. It means so much. I mean it really touches me if I mention I’m not up to par … and someone cares. I’m amazed … they don’t have to do that. I never take anything for granted.
Don’t expect me to go on and on about ‘oh poor me, I was hurting so bad’ … I’m not. I’m too-ready to get past it so, I can think, do other things.
It feels good to feel good once again. You don’t have to know how much I have suffered. I can carry my own baggage. 🙂
Note by this Author: I am so glad to almost be well … it has been hell 🙂 Photos/how I really feel owned, written by me … Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.