By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny
Eyes closed, head pressed against my hands
Cold fingers caress my forehead
Emotion wells up inside my Heart
I hear the cold wind blowing, wind chimes ringing
I feel afraid … why? I feel so small in this big world
Tears flow down my cheeks … clouds squeezing out raindrops
Why am I crying … why am I afraid … sad?
Death is walking near … I feel him ever so often
I pray with my Heart for him to go away
Please don’t touch my world anymore
You’ve taken everyone who meant the world to me
Please go away … I need what I have left
So, I can live, not be alone in this big, cold world
Sitting here, I wring my hands … I hear my dog howl
From the bedroom down the hall … did he sense something
Did he feel Death was walking close to us?
I pray my Lord to keep us safe, sound
Please don’t let Death enter my world … they’re all I have
I have my husband, our two Pups
I sit here with my head in my hands
I’m crying deep down in my soul … am I grieving
For my son … or am I just sad … why am I crying
Crying as my thoughts go through the walls to outside
To ride on the wind as they blow the wind chimes
They ring as I look about me … in the night
In the night light … trees sway … it’s so cold
Is Death coming for me … is that why I’m afraid
Why I’m sad … why I cry … do I sense something
Did my dog? I don’t want to die either
I haven’t finished my living yet … I need more time
I find myself holding my hands to my Heart
My chin resting upon them … my eyes closed
I have a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach
Why? I know everything will be all right
So … why am I crying … why am I sad, feel so down?
I become aware of the chimes ringing louder
The wind is blowing harder
I get up to go look out my window
I relax as I stand looking out … snowflakes!
The wind is blowing snowflakes from Heaven!
A smile comes to my lips … inside my Heart
I feel Life soar inside me … as Death goes away
Leaving me, my world alone for another time
I thank God from my Heart … for now, I’m not alone
Note by this Author:
I woke up at 2:00 am this morning, couldn’t go back to sleep. Thoughts of things that slightly upset me were on my mind. I can’t seem to shake them … make them go away.
I couldn’t lay in bed with such turmoil going on inside me … it was like a boat trying to float under water. I just couldn’t do it. I know you’ve had those times when you couldn’t just lay in a bed with so much going on in your mind.
I got up, came to my computer, began to write to make my sadness, yes … even some anger, fears go away. I’ve written many words this morning to put distance between me … what makes me upset, afraid.
I still have a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach … I must have more words to write to make it go away.
Thoughts, photo written, owned by me … Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.+