Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
Since January .. my Husband has almost died 3 times … stroke, congested heart failure … he had a pacemaker put in … had 2 heart stents put in … suffered a groin bleed … kidney failure, had a kidney stent put in … plus much more than I will say. On top of it all, he had pneumonia.
For the 4th month, we have been battling his illnesses. He has been in the hospital 3 times … he has also, fallen 3 times due to his heart failure. All of this time … somehow, I’ve made it with my own medical conditions to be there for him. I love my Husband with my very Heart. I’m afraid for him.
I will have surgery later this month on top of it all. I am going to my doctor appointments at the same time as going to Skip’s, and to the hospital. Like today … we had 3 appointments to go to … some days there are two appointments.
Today at the doctor’s visit … Skip’s condition has taken another serious turn. I don’t know what we will do for money, we need tires for the pickup to drive back, forwards to Raleigh (40 miles going, 40 miles coming back) … we need to change the oil. Skip is too sick to understand, worry about these things. He always took care of these things for us.
I have been alone in all of this … no one to talk to, to go to. I’ve been focusing on running everyday to be with Skip … praying that the pickup will hold up. I have no one to help me financially … I can’t just go to anyone to ask for help.
I’m in a position I don’t know what to do. So, I will go forward, as far as I can. If I can’t go any farther … I will have to ask for help … someone suggested to make a GoFund Me page like I did when I needed help to help our Pups.
If I do have to make a GoFund Me page to ask for help … it’s because I have no where to turn … I have no one left in this world to be here for me. This is what happens when one’s family dies out … no family/friend support system.
I have no one but, Skip and our Pups. What I’m trying to say is … if you see me ask for help publically …. it’s because I have no choice. I have to be there for Skip, and our Pups. I don’t want to sound like I’m begging for help when I ask. I’m afraid I am going to have to ask in the near future.
I can’t ask in person … I’m afraid to take from someone because in my mind I worry about them needing it. I know I have given my last dollar in the past … and I don’t want to take someone’s ‘last dollar’. I can’t take advantage of anyone.
I’m a giver, and I’ve never been a taker … only in extreme situations. This is an extreme situation that may cause me to ask for help … and I’m so sorry I have to. If you see me ask for help, just know that I have to.
Today’s appointment wasn’t good at all … all is more complicated. I won’t go into detail about it here, anymore. All is too serious … and our life has taken another unexpected turn … it has gotten much harder, more serious. I will respect Skip’s privacy at this point … he doesn’t want me to talk about his condition to anyone right now.
At the moment, we’ve been knocked to the ground … we are going to stay down for this weekend, rest. We both are so mentally, physically tired from all Skip has suffered these past 3 months.
Once we are rested …. strong again … we will get up … dust our pants off … and go to battle once more in our life. We have a war to win … and my fighting spirit will pull us through. I feel it fired up for the fight … I just need rest now … I’ve more than reached my breaking point.
Just like I told Skip … no matter what … all is going to be alright. Thank you all for caring. heart emoticon I won’t talk about this to anyone no time soon. Some things have to be private. I know my Facebook Friends understand. I send you all love.
Our Pups are taken good care of … always. When I leave for all these appointments … I leave them lots of water, food out. We love, pet them constantly.