I Weathered The Storm … I Was The Storm
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
The pain began ‘out of the blue’, making me hold the wash cloth to my face. My tears became lost in the water from the shower. I held my hand to my chest… the pain.
I stood there for several minutes, sobbing silently. I wanted to cry forever. I knew I couldn’t… I didn’t want anyone to see my eyes and ‘know’. Especially… Skip.
Everything is going to be alright… it’s May… Tommy died May 29, 2010. My brother, Rick-Rick, died May 19, 2005.
On May 19, 2009… Tommy’s life changed in such a way as to affect him until he died one year later. A man stepped in front of his tractor-trailer… he was killed. That began the ‘death‘ of my son…
May, 2010…. was the last time I got to be a mother… my only child died. I became ‘motherless’…
There are more things… I just don’t want to remember them. Remembering my son’s death is almost more than I can bear. I can bear it … now. I know everything’s going to be alright … now.
I, know there will still be times when the pain will become almost unbearable… my son, my son… my child died. Can you imagine such a thing?
Today, I was showering… enjoying the scent of my perfumed soap. I had my mind on what I wanted to pick up when going to town later.
A dark cloud hovered over me for several minutes… making me cry stormy tears. I was the storm… when I finished, the sun brightened all up again. I began smiling… everything’s going to be alright. I weathered this storm…
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Love and squishy hugs Gloria!!! 🙂
Prenin.
:)))
I love the ‘doodle’. I’m glad you get yourself through these storms Gloria. I know it must take a tremendous amount of strength, and love for Tommy.
Colleen, thank-you. It does, it really does… everything will be alright… even if I have a ‘storm’… :)))
Have you ever noticed after a storm, going outside, and everything smells clean. Fresher? Like it’s telling us to give it a good go, again? 🙂
Yes, I have! :)))
🙂
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