I’ve Taken My Apple Out of the Bag Twice …

By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

When one tries to be good always

What do they do when they feel anger?

What do they do?

When one tries to never think mean thoughts

What do they do if they think bad of someone

What do they do?

When one is human … never perfect

What do they do to get rid of anger, bad feelings

When they never let the person they’re angry with … know?

Never wanting to hurt another person

Yet … it’s going to happen sooner … later

Because to let them know how they made you feel … you have to tell them

It won’t ever go away … it’ll stay right there in your mind

Just as an apple placed into a bag stays … until taken out

I’ve taken my apple out of the bag twice in the past several weeks

Twice in several weeks … I’ve felt bad … it began to build inside

Not being one to hold things in … I felt the need to let each one know

How I felt … yet, I still feel bad … I still feel upset

Never wanting to hurt another person … yet … I know I have

Unintentionally … not because they hurt me first … and they did

Hurt them because … I expressed how I truly felt … and I’d do it again

Sorry I hurt them … not sorry for saying what’s on my mind

I’m not perfect … I should have let things go … I couldn’t

Sometimes … one can’t when it comes to being made to feel bad

I couldn’t … when someone wasted unnecessary words

Words that never need be spoken

Especially not to me … knowing I’m respectful of everyone

Knowing I’d never ask anything from anyone

I know you’ve felt the same when someone spoke unnecessary words to you

They knew better … why would they do it … anyway?

I’m being crytic … when I hurt, feel pain

I begin to write as I think … to make it go away

I woke up sad … yes, a tiny bit of anger in my Heart

Not wanting it to build up inside … I opened the dam

Words like water began pouring out

As I sit here … releasing them from my fingertips

Like a river … my words flow until I don’t see them anymore

They’ve gone far and wide

Riding the currents, blowing in the wind

Leaving me feeling calm … whole again

Let the anger go … let bad feelings go away

It’s not the end of the world … today … begins a new day

Author’s Note:

I’m not perfect … I do feel anger, pain when I feel someone has hurt me … whether they do it intentionally or not.

If I don’t feel something is right … I do get upset. I try not to let anyone know. I don’t like to hurt others … sometimes, I have … I do.

To express how I feel … I do it in the nicest way possible so, as not to hurt … reality is … it does hurt. If I don’t do that … I get physically sick inside if I hold ‘bad’ feelings in.

As a younger person I would let people hurt me … never letting them know. Then … one, two … three … the third time I am going to say something. The sad thing is when someone never likes you again … the sad thing is when that happens … you know they never liked you to begin with.

All I can say is … life can be like that. It isn’t all smiles, happiness. I’m not perfect … I get mad, too. Just because I try so hard to be good … doesn’t mean I don’t become upset sometimes. Doesn’t mean I don’t feel bad when I do … because that’s exactly what happens … I feel bad when I do.

Photo, poem owned … written by me, Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.